Today I was at the kidney clinic for my now weekly appointment. My function has come up to 8%. I never thought 8 would sound like a good number, but once you get to 6 it seems fantastic! When my function dropped to 6% the doctor decided to take me off a medication that I’ve been taking since I was diagnosed. It’s a blood pressure medication that has a beneficial effect in protecting the kidneys until you get to a very low function. So they did expect I would have a little gain. Fantastic. It buys me a little more time without dialysis. Time to continue to work on my emotional well being, physical health and be in the absolute best condition for a transplant.
An interesting thing that happened as well was that my blood pressure dropped quite significantly. Remember that drug I had been on was for blood pressure? Well, recently I had to take a second blood pressure medication as it was getting up there. There were complications with that and I ended up off of it. So that means today having my blood pressure down was with no medication. I have been off work for a week and a half. My to do list is finally leaving my awareness. Coincidence? Maybe, or maybe not. Interesting? I think so.
We all hear about the effects stress can have on our physical as well as mental health. I think I can safely say it was taking a greater toll on me than I knew. It’s so difficult to really see the effects of circumstances when you’r in the midst of it. When you are able to step back – if you are given that kind of space- it’s so very telling. So much of yoga philosophy is centred around the idea of detaching and letting go. In practice this can be easy, but it can also be incredibly difficult. When we don’t allow ourselves the space we need to release stress our resilience gets very low and we can no longer cope. That’s where I got.
I’m so thankful for this time to heal my mind and very interested to see how my body responds.